Then there's the friend thing... I don't really have any. Being part of a mommy board at one point, I thought I had good friends, and then drama was created there and I backed away from it all and lost all the friends I once had on it all together. Now, I'm all alone. I don't go and hang out with anyone, and I certainly don't feel wanted by anyone either. It's been bugging me for a few months now... wishing I had some friends to relate to, to talk to, or just to have support from. I have a friend or two but it's not really the same. Makes me think back and wonder what if I would have just been "Switzerland" like Bella considered herself in the Twilight series in the book "Eclipse". Would I have been able to keep those friends? Were they even true to begin with? Was it all my fault? It's times like these where I wish I could just move away and start all over again with the whole friendship process. I have tried finding other mommy groups so that my kids have interaction as well but they just aren't around, and the ones that are, have the people that I am no longer friends with as a part of their group as well. I just can't win.
Right now, I'm just thankful for my family here in my household. They always put a smile on my face even if they do sometimes stress me out.